A few days ago I had an analogous news story to the old deal of looking at what you don't have and moping instead of looking at what you do have, getting your head out your ass and creating. Tonight I don't care that half my brain fell away over the week. I just don't care. I'm lucky I recall half the story of the post that wasn't to be written. And the important part and the moral of the story is what I remembered anyway.
So that made me think that perhaps this is my brain getting more efficient. I don't recall details that are immaterial these days but I can recall things said very well. Because nearly everything makes me stop and think these days. When you think a lot, and this week has been full of lots to think about, your brain does this defragmenting kinda thing. Or at least mine does. There's an internal widget filtering the important from the unimportant. Consequently, scenes of the past that were recorded are brought to the fore for an instant in a kind of mental "Concentration", sans Art James or Hugh Downs.
This is just part of the never-ending-figuring-out-your-life that everyone does. It usually happens here and there. This week it was downloading faster than my brain could grasp. A series of "Aha!" moments accompanied by, "Holy shit!" realizations, one after another.
Which is terrific; I'm not complaining. It's good to live long enough to figure some shit out. But it eats your brain. I'm tired and had a hard time communicating today. My saintly Girl Friday was as fried as me so there was a lot of laughing. Also great, and made us both more tired.
So I'm going to bed early. Generally bedtime is midnight, sleep at 1 a.m. but no way tonight. I think I'll sleep in late as I can. Wonder what kinds of dreams may come... 'night.
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G'night Austan. Buckety.
G'night, little Acky. ;)
Good night, sleep tight, don't let the ziparumpazous bite.
The ziparumpazous must have bit. I can't sleep. Time to go find new blogs.
I hope you are asleep now. And that you get your sleep in.
There is a wonderful Farside Cartoon (one of a million)in which his usual truly dorky child has his hand up in class saying 'May I be excuse? My brain is full.'
And I have found as fast as I cram something new in, something old is buried. Still there I think, but less accessible.
Hello,
Funny, how the brain works it is always taking in data and sometimes the circuits get overloaded. I could relate to this line from your blog.
"This week it was downloading faster than my brain could grasp"
Hope you found some sleep!
I hope that you had a good night sleep.
I would not worry about trying to reason or even figure out where and how we get into the struggles of life, but I think we can survive better if we take a good look at our own problems, think about them, ponder over them, try to figure out what we can do about them( instead of wondering where they came from).
I try to take care of myself, even at my age, but telling my family members to d take care of themselves is an other story. I know that I cannot do much. So now I have stopped worrying but am still telling. That is keeping my BP under control.
Hope you managed to get some sleep. It can be difficult when the brain is racing.
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