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Tuesday, January 8, 2013

There's A Light....

Billy laughed this morning. That may have been the best sound I ever heard in my entire life.

It's gonna be all right. Slowly, but it will.

Kick and her family and a couple of other old friends are going to represent me at Mac's wake. And to be my eyes. It's so good to have friends in need.

We'll get thru this, together. There is a lot of life beyond death.

10 comments:

Geo. said...

A laugh, good. It takes a while to feel the future again, but what you say here is encouraging.

Starting Over, Accepting Changes - Maybe said...

No matter the sorrow, a good laugh will finally come.

I have told my family that at my funeral, I do not want any formal service, I just want people to tell funny stories about me. They have plenty of material.

mybabyjohn/Delores said...

God bless him....laughter is such good medicine.

Austan said...

Geo. we're already making Summer plans. And his best friend replied to me today and my shoulders left my ears. That's just what it is encouraging. Watch out world, Billy and I are pals again. Can Pong and the Gong Show be far behind?

Austan said...

Arleen- that's the way to do it. Food, drinks, funny stories. I bet there are hundreds to tell about you.
Tomorrow I'm eulogizing Mac here. I have very funny stories about her to tell. Mostly involving accidents. She was a klutz and had the gift of laughing at herself. Just one thing I'll miss.

Austan said...

If Billy's laughing, all's right with the world. Or will be. Or at least standable.

The Elephant's Child said...

Wonderful, wonderful news. Now you can breathe again. I expect that your eulogy of Mac will have eveyone who knows her laughing through their tears - which is as it should be.

MoonRaven said...

Whoa. I'm catching up at the end of this.

I'm so sorry to hear of your sister-in-law's death, but glad to hear your brother is doing okay. It sounds like this may even bring you closer.

May you and your brother find the laughter and peace you need.

Austan said...

EC- there are things I've noted when someone dies, after so many deaths.
First off, a disgusting but true phenomenon. You sweat without realizing it and the smell is different than your regular sweat. Adrenalin? I don't know. But it's distinctly different than any other sweat. It's funeral sweat.

Second, people show who they really are. Strider and Niecely have had my back so closely I swear I could feel their breaths on my neck. They knew I had to vent and backed me up every moment. They know the grief process and helped me do it without judgment or correction. Some never even responded to the news. And some said they'd "be there" for me and disappeared. I always say, you don't know someone til you go thru a death with them.

Fourth, everything awful in life can have an up side, too. It's the wolf you feed, as they say.

I'm looking forward to telling the Mac stories. I hope even those who didn't know her will get a laugh from her Lucylike existence.

Austan said...

Moony- yes, it's making us grow closer again. We were so close when we were young. So in a selfish way, I look at this as a second chance to be the Gruesome Twosome, as our Mom called us. That gives me joy beyond words. Thanks Moony.