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Monday, January 30, 2012

As Resolve Wanes

Tomorrow marks 4 weeks on the high protein highway. I've certainly lost weight. I do feel better. And I would kill, yes, kill, for a plate of lasagna or chinese food.

Instead of leaping off the meatwagon, I'm trying to figure out how to deal with it. I made a commitment and come hell or high water we're meeting Greg in April. That's the bottom line. If I don't carry through, I'll totally hate myself.

So it's time to take a minute and look at what's eating at me. First of all it's no help to have someone remark that they "can't believe" I don't "even have ketchup in the house". And to leave behind a pound of truffles - the same truffles I've been parrying with for a month and successfully ignored. Then there's the fact that everyone you see or talk to or email with brings up what good food they've just had, or are having, or will be having. And then there's the tv, where every 6 minutes is a food commercial.

These are all everyday things and normal (well, maybe not the truffles) but right now are really annoying issues. It's like any mention of food looms huge in my head. It doesn't help that I'm sick of meat, eggs, cheese and romaine. Even bacon. Who gets sick of bacon? Me. It doesn't help that it's the end of the month and there's little left in the fridge anyway. It doesn't help that it's winter and the bleakness is starting to set in. It doesn't help that I'm starting to feel very sorry for myself while everyone else eats whatever they want to get through the winter doldrums.

So I gotta set some limits. For now at least, I gotta stop anyone talking about food to me. If a food commercial comes on, mute it or change the channel. I have to work on my attitude. On Friday new meats, fish and cheeses and real coffee will be in the house. I only have to make it til then. Maybe I can't make it forever, but I can make it for 3 more days.

And it's 82 1/2 days to Greg. Gods help me.

18 comments:

mybabyjohn/Delores said...

I'm pulling hard for you over here. Don't slide off the wagon. If you do the pounds will stampede back on plus some. You don't want that!! Keep fighting the good fight. You can do it.

Austan said...

Thanks, Lawless. That means a lot to me right now cuz I'm feeling mighty weak.

Su said...

You can do it! Think about how fabulous you're going to continue to feel, and how amazing you'll look!

Austan said...

Thank you Su! Every cheer pulls me up and outta the funk!

Cathy Olliffe-Webster said...

Any consolation, Austan, I'm dieting too. I've been going to Weight Watchers since last August and, while I've lost 56 pounds it continues to be a struggle. One thing I will say for my program, it doesn't disallow any food groups so I honestly never feel hard done by. Plus, I cheat once a week. If you truly feel the no carbs thing isn't working for you, I couldn't recommend WW any higher. I have struggled with weight my whole life and this, combined with lots of exercise,which I loathe, is working for me.

If you're going to stick to the no-carb, all-meat diet, I wish you nothing but strength, willpower, determination and mind over matter. You ca do it, Austan. You can. Very, very, very best of luck, from someone who feels your pain.

And, if you do break down, don't think of it as the end of the world. It's not! Get right back on the bacon horse and lawdy, have some pig for me!

Austan said...

Thanks, Cathy. I guess we just have to keep on keeping on, talk about it when it gets too heavy, and keep our eyes on the prize. GREG GREG GREG!

Starting Over, Accepting Changes - Maybe said...

I have never tried the protein diet, but know of others who have been very successful. Drink a lot of water, stay as far away from the kitchen as possible, read a book (not a cooking one), and try to sleep 20 hrs a day.

Carbs are my religion and I am sure I would go to hell in a hand basket if I did South Beach.

I am in my 4th month of Weight Watchers and am close to my goal of losing 20 lbs. if I can lose it, so can you.

Keep the faith, you're a winner and we all know you will be successful.

Betsy said...

Hi,
You might find this book http://www.nytimes.com/2011/09/04/books/review/willpower-by-roy-f-baumeister-and-john-tierney-book-review.html?pagewanted=all
interesting. It's about how willpower is actually a finite resource, and there are strategies to use it wisely. Good luck!
Betsy

Joanne said...

You can Do It!!!!!!!!Don't let that carb monster get the best of you! I have succumbed many times and wish I could be as strong as you!
Blessings, Joanne

The Elephant's Child said...

mybabyjohn/Delores sent me over. I have often admired your comments over at her place. You can do this. I need to do this and you and people like you are an inspiration.

Austan said...

Arleen- Sleeping 20 hours a day sounds good to me! Thank you for the rooting. I didn't know you were dieting too! I'll hang in there and you too. You're a pal. We can do this.

Austan said...

Betsy- Thanks for the tip- I'm on it. Books are good distraction if nothing else! ;)

Austan said...

Joanna- It is a monster! (kind of the Anti-Flying Spaghetti Monster) You can be as strong, it's just not easy at times. And blessings to you.

Austan said...

TEC- Thank you. It's a lot better today, and I'm thinking that's how the ride goes. There are days when it's not an issue at all and days when it gets close to quitting. You just can't let the push of the quitting days win. Whatever it takes to get through that, you've gotta do. It sure helps to get support in the battle though!

paulg said...
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paulg said...

Let's try that again.

I'm in awe of your willpower - I have none.
If I didn't have genetics on my side I'd be like Haystack Calhoun (a pro wrestler from the 60's).

Susan Flett Swiderski said...

Rah, Rah, siss boom bah! How's that? Good luck, kiddo.

Austan said...

Paul- I wish I had your genes! You and Joe seem to be able to burn thru food like wildfire!

Sue- That helps! ;) Thanks girl.